30DTC: Days Twenty-One to Twenty-Two: Cable Vision
Day 21 - One of your favorite shows.
Breaking Bad. Holy shit, is that show great. It’s probably as addictive as the meth they produce on there. The narrative is well put-together, the actors are fantastic (the guys who play Walter and Jesse have a marvelous chemistry with one another), and the show is genuinely interesting. I can’t wait for the new season, because I’m going to watch the shit out of it.
Day 22 - How have you changed in the past 2 years?
I’d like to think that in many ways, I’m a lot more mature than I was at 18. But then, in some ways I’m not. I’m still impulsive, and I do really stupid things. Frankly, I still make lots of really stupid mistakes with almost no forethought or care whatsoever.
I’m also still a pretty angry individual. I had thought that had all subsided, maybe I just need to get high more often, but I just find myself pissed at the world and everyone in it. My worldview is very jaded and devoid of meaning or purpose or place.
I can’t even really think of a single lesson I’ve learned, other than “Don’t fall behind on homework.” Every other thing I think I’ve learned is really just circumstantial emotional philosophical bullshit. I’m not really sure I care about much of anything right now.
I feel devoid of emotion, and occasionally, morality in general. The real question is, did I change at all, and if so, have I been changing for the better?
I used to be so optimistic, and believed that I could change the world…and yet, now I see a certain appeal in just destroying the entire world, and everyone in it.
